tipsy?

My medication is making me slightly tipsy.. not even tipsy - ONLY sometimes I felt like I lost my balance when my sugar level is low.

my blood pressure is like 133/69 - is it too low? [the bottom bit?]

I stop taking it two days ago. I want to leave it for a week perhaps? see what happens then.

Whakkkk??? my epic battle with my weight did you ask??

What I found is... it so so damn hard to break the unhealthy routine... arrghhh only thing change slightly is : since it's longer days, I (we) manage to have a little walk around Perth [not everyday though] but it's a start.

Not game enough to start swimming - I will definitely look like twit in the swimming costume!

Somebody says (I heard it on the radio I think) if we do things repetitively for 14 times.. it will become .. our 'habit'

sounds easy enough - 14 times ain't that many..... until you try to do it!

Malaysian weather is here

Hot and humid... it rained this morning but the temperature remain high... I laaaarrrrvvveeeeee
this weather... but my face is sooo puffy - hands too [water retention!]

so many health issues --- sooooo getting close to my D day!

Dear All Psychologists

Why the moment I thought about losing weight - I will do the opposite?

16-Nov..

Happy Birthday to: Nazlina, Leyza and Zarina

I just realised that 3 of my friends shared the same birthdates [ofcourse different years]
How often you get that? Or maybe I just never thought about it.

I know I share my birthday with Sultan Pahang : Yes dahling, when he was Agung, I got a 'public holiday' as birthday present! also.. 'sometimes' I got to share my birthday with Deepavali celebration.

1 week on

Nothing changes... was good for one day (maybe half day?)... back to normal routine and eating habits
How do we control our appetite?
How to stop eating when we already have enough?

changing is the hardest thing to do....

nothing changed... 5 weeks to go

Struggling

It isn't easy to capture your food. I am sure everybody knows it.
Yesterday wan't very successful in food intake department. Exercise also none!
- Hopefully better day today.
I still taking pictures [whatever I can]..

The images are frightening!

Hall of shame begins

Dinner last night - I was concious this time not to snack during cooking [please Allah I hope it will last!] - This is my downfall really. Normally I came back hungry and I will stuff my face with whatever on my way. (like piranha! yikes)

Since I want to take picture - so it was hard to to eat on the go!

I really feel like taking a slice of smoked salmon in the fridge as I was preparing the dinner.. but I didn't.. (3 cheers for me!)

This was my dinner - 2 sausages plus salad: cucumber,semi-dried tomatoes, fresh tomatoes, feta cheese, mesclun mixed from hisham's vege patch, balsamic vinegar and a bit of olive oil.

Second helping! (why I always do that?) - so 3 sausages n another serve of salad

Another down fall - eating my kids leftovers - that piece of bread... and you think I should have enough???

nooooooo I had to eat 'maruku' that was on the table [I don't feel guilty about eating this - my mum made it with love and it travelled thousands of kms into my mouth]

Last but not least, a cup? glass ? of coffee and chikory.

I am ashamed to say - on a normal day prior to this day - My dinner is MORE than these!

Taking pictures of my foods arn't as easy as it sounds.... but last night when my kids and my sister were having instant noodle supper - I didn't join them because I couldn't be bothered to take picture.. no picture no eating!

Will it work???? I don't know --- this is only the second day!

Health Issues

Every two years since I had babies, I had to go through dreaded pap smear tests. There is a national registry on pap smear. If you don't do it, you will get a nagging letter every so often.

I did one this week [only about 2 years later than I supposed to]. I sometimes wonder... if you have the big C..... do you really want to know?

Apparently, YES... cervical cancer is treatable and you got to treat it early.
- I only put this line because I work at cancer clinic so I have to put some positive words about my job -

Another thing was my weight and blood pressure is on the highish side. [141/103]

I can hear my heartbeat ticking away on my right ear.. constantly and can be crazy at times.

I MUST lose weight

How - I don't know yet...

Whine is fine but seriously I feel like a walking time bomb.

She prescribed karvea 150 mg for me and I have to see her in 6 weeks time. She even gave me SMART objectives 'lecture'

S: specific [2 kilos in 6 weeks for eg.]
M: measurable
A: Achievable
R: Realistic
T: Time bound

I know you smart-ass management ppl out there will give me SMARTER
with Evaluate and Re-evaluate

Who wants to lose weight (or getting fitter or ??) the S.M.A.R.T way with me???

I weighed 101 kg that day at doctor's office.
In 6 weeks time the goal is 99 kg! - sounds specific enough, measurable, achievable [I sure hope so], realistic? YES and YES it has the 'time' component.

I took my first pill last night! [I hope it is enough bitter pill of reality check for me]
I did walked around the block for 15 minutes --- not good enough but at least something to start with.

Today: I think I already eaten more calorie for the day [maybe several days]

-- so this is when it gone wrong...... I just can't keep my food intake on the track!
I am going to try something about this... this is to achieve my specific measureable achievable realistic timely objective - which is losing 2 kilos in 6 weeks! I would:
take pictures of all the food I put in my mouth!
as simple as that [or is it?]

starting today - insyaAllah..... well half the day is gone but from now on I will take a picture of whatever go through my guts!

How gross this blog is going to be?!!! hahahahaa
YOU! poor you!

Cocky Peacock

I said to Aladdin - Please go and make the peacock open his feather.....

Suddenly it opened up - WOW - I wish I had one of those camera like Shil's or Ilah's - (assuming that I could take better picture with better camera - which is not always the case)

compact camera is to "white" ain't it?

Maybe it is to do with the person using it!

Chair Lifts at Cataract Gorge

Yam and Aladdin on chair lifts

Sea of rhododendrons

Mariam in Melbourne

Victoria Market

On Tram

Near Chinatown

Chicken Brianni at Chilli Padi.

Meet My Sister Mariam

1. Her real name is Nur Fadzilah Abdul Hamid.

2. My paternal grandmother just passed away when she was born so I suggested to my Dad to call this new baby: Mariam (like my beloved 'tok'). My Dad wasn't keen. As all of us (7 at the time) has names that start with F - so F it should be..

3. But then, he put Nur in front of her name - so it wasn't F anyway.....

4. But EVERYBODY including my Dad calls her Mariam or Yam.

5. There's about 20 years difference between me and her and 18 years difference between me and our mum.

6. When she was a baby - I always pretended to be her mother. I will asked my mum if I can take this baby to sleep with me (my mum always said NO)

7. By the time my mum had her she wasn't as 'garang' as she was with us 7... so I was the one who do the 'garang' thingy with her. I think she got her first "big smack" from me rather than my mum... I won't tell you what she did...

8. I worried about her [and my youngest brother] a lot. She is 21, not academically strong, what's next?

9. Hopefully she can somehow enrich her life experience with this trip. She is a really nice and sweet sister

Suspeng

My sister is taking her first overseas trip... Can't wait to see her tomorrow -- insyaAllah 11 am at Melbourne Airport.

From Grand Design to Slumming It

http://www.abc.net.au/iview/?series=3044571#/series/3044571

Hello all.... I am in the state of 'unhappiness' with worldly material at the moment... until I saw this program.......

go and watch it and tell me what you think??